Slow and Steady

   I have always been all or nothing. Either I am strict as can be, or I am stuffing my face full. I am proud that, even though I am not being strict and continuing to lose my 2lbs a week, I am still losing and I am also maintaining. I am learning to find that middle ground. If I feel like I'm going to break and binge, I indulge a little and then keep rolling. I have been doing this for a while now. Three and a half months actually...I am still learning and growing and making mistakes with my lifestyle, but I'm sticking too it! It is amazing to be that in the past month I've had cake, pudding, fries, steak, AND I still consider myself to be sticking to it!

   I feel better about myself, I feel stronger, happier, healthier...I proved that I know how to do this and I am capable of doing it. I am down 41 pounds at this moment! I started at 210 and am now at 169...This is the lowest I have been in sosososo long. I am only 9 pounds away from losing all the weight I have put on in the last year. Go me, I think I deserve some new clothes. My work clothes are beyond baggy...I really with i had taken some better "before" pictures to compare to where I am now. I really want to work on my fitness level next. I always say that it seems pointless to work on the fit part when it's covered by all the fat. Well, the fat is going away and I'm losing my excuse to not work hard on getting my butt in shape, I'm going to look into a personal trainer to kick me off!