I suck, I suck, I suck, I suck!
I haven't been to the gym in weeks, I managed to drink all juice for five days and yet I can't even stick to a healthy solid diet. I'm stressed, I'm angry, I'm sad. I'm hurt, I feel betrayed, and I want to drive to Michigan and rip my brother's face off.
Tonight I ate my weight in Panera sweets. One of those crappy things can blow my daily calories, and I think I had four...or five. UGH! What is wrong with me. Why am I punishing myself for something that my brother did? It doesn't make any sense at all. I am so angry with him, and each day that goes by with no contact just makes me more and more angry. I can see that it's effecting my diet. I have to be able to stop this bullshit. I cannot let my stupid, selfish, asshole brother ruin everything I have worked so hard for!! I WON"T!
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