ughhhh

Why am I having such a hard time controlling my eating? I really am trying, and blowing it on the food side. However, I have been running, which is something I NEVER do...ever. I've done about six miles this week, which is about 5.5 more miles than I've ever done in a week lol

Backwards

  For my entire life, when I have wanted to lose weight, it has always been that I am good at being strict with my eating, and inconsistent with working out. Lately, however, it seems to be totally ass backwards! I have discovered the joys of classes at the gym. I have taken and loved PiYo and Zumba. These classes have upped my usual pithy cardio workout into a calorie burning, muscle working beast of a work out and I love it. I think it's something about having all those people around me, and having an instructor watching me that kicks me into a higher gear than I would be on my own.
 
   I am proud that I had the nerve to take that first class, because I discovered something that I really like to do, and, in the exercise world, that's not easy for me to find. My eating has been crappy lately. I start off the day really well, I do well through lunch, and then around dinner I go all out. Pie and french fries with my boyfriend, cookies and cupcakes at work (ugh again?). I really thought that taking these classes would help me in a "I worked so hard in Zumba this morning, I'm not going to waste that on a cupcake" when the reality is that I'm giving myself more of a "hey I busted my ass in Zumba today for five hundred extra calories so I can have this...and this...and this". Poop. I'm really trying not to.

   I'm going to bring my protien shakes back into the equation. I'm hoping that they will remind me how hard I have worked, plus I do have a whole lot extra, hehe. Back at it.